Jerry Jackson, a retired accountant, described the accumulation of losses that accompany old age in concrete, mathematical terms.
When he and his wife moved to Rydal Park, a Jenkintown, Pennsylvania, retirement community, they joined an informal breakfast group of about 10. “They were a great bunch of people,” said Jackson, who is now 90.
Seven years later, “I’m still in the same chair as when everybody was here, but there are only two of us left, and we eat at different times.” Among the empty chairs is the one his wife of almost 70 years occupied. She died in May.
Coping with the deaths of friends and family members and the inescapable knowledge that time is limited for remaining peers is among the great emotional challenges of ageing.
“It sucks, period,” said Dorree Lynn, a 77-year-old psychologist in Charleston, South Carolina, who recently lost two close colleagues. “It starts in your 60s and gets worse.” Not everyone can overcome it, but those who are resilient enough to navigate this dance with mortality well can find wisdom and everyday joy made sweeter by the depletion of time.
Thelma Reese, 85
A retired professor of English and education, she co-authored The New Senior Woman and The New Senior Man and is working on another book about seniors.
She’s a believer in “doing things that take you out of yourself enough to widen your horizon a little” to improve mental health and prevent focus on the physical problems of old age.
It’s tough to lose old friends, either from death or growing apart. “You feel like you’re losing part of your history when they go.” New friends can listen to your stories, but you haven’t “lived and breathed it together”.
She is “extremely” conscious of her mortality and has been reading about psychologist Erik Erikson’s stages of development. His last stage (65 and up) is the age of integrity or despair. That resonates with Reese. Once you have a “sense of an ending”, she said, “it can either make you despair or make you think: ‘I’ve got to do something. I’ve got to get it done somehow’.”
Interviewing other seniors who are leading active lives helps her open up. “I’m interested in these people because they’re doing things I’m not. I admire them. I find it encouraging that they’re in the world.”
There’s no doubt that many elders let their social world contract. “They sort of shrink into a box,” said Reese, who lives in the Bella Vista neighbourhood of Philadelphia.
Pain and joy
Scientific evidence that isolation and loneliness are harmful, both physically and emotionally, is mounting. “Being by yourself with the shades drawn and not interacting with other people can be deadly,” said Stephen Scheinthal, a geriatric psychiatrist who is chair of psychiatry at the Rowan University School of Osteopathic Medicine.
And yet research also shows that, as a group, older people in decent health score higher on measures of happiness than young and middle-aged adults. (Scores sometimes dip a bit as infirmities increase.) This is true even though deaths are not the only losses the aged face. Many have also lost their independence and professional prestige. Friends and family members have moved away or cut ties.
What allows some people to thrive emotionally at a time when losses are piling up? How do they find the courage to care when they have so much experience with heartbreak?
The answer, according to experts and older people themselves, is not as simple as “you have to keep making new friends”, although that is a common part of the equation. It also helps to embrace the idea that life can have meaning and purpose at any age, to treasure the people who are left, to cultivate gratitude and seek personal growth. A sense of humour is invaluable. Curiosity helps, too.
Marc Agronin, a Miami geriatric psychiatrist and author of The End Of Old Age, said that more of his clients in their 80s and 90s still have friends from childhood around now than in the past because people are living longer. But, he said, the concept of loss has also changed with modern life. Families are smaller and more scattered. Friends may also have moved. Travel becomes more difficult with age. Older people often feel less connected whether their friends are alive or not.
This can all sound pretty depressing to younger people, but Agronin said many of us make a crucial error when we imagine how it will feel to be older. We forget, he said, that “we will be different people”.
Young Bin Lee, 81
Raised in both North and South Korea, Lee came to the US for advanced medical training in 1964. He had planned to go back to Korea, but his wife, also a doctor, got cancer, and they stayed. She died in 2000. Two good friends died this year.
He works four half-days a week as a neuropsychiatrist and is active in his church and Korean organisations. He loves opera. He has had heart surgery and a kidney transplant. His kidney came from his second wife, Eulie, whom he married 10 years ago.
Asked about grief, Lee, a resident of Medford, quoted a character from the opera Nabucco, who said, “Lord, give us the courage to endure suffering.” Notice, Lee said, the character did not say, “Lord, do not give us any suffering.”
Keeping busy and maintaining a younger mindset help him live with loss. “I like to think I’m still in my 50s and 60s. At that age, you work hard. You take care of your children and you think about your grandchildren and try to study and learn more. That kind of lifestyle, I like that.”
He keeps his eye on today. “I don’t think about how long I’m going to live. I focus on now. I have no fear of dying, actually, but I will do my best until I die.”
Along with loss and decline, Agronin said, old age can mean “a simultaneous process of growth and development”. Ideally, perspectives broaden and people become more resistant to adversity.
Caroline Wroblewski, 75
She retired at 70 as director of a counselling and treatment programme for women in Washing-ton, DC. Never married, she has lost a sister and moved to be near her brother. Close friends have moved to Texas and Massachusetts. She counts leaving her beloved condo near Washington as a loss. She volunteers with hospice patients.
Wroblewski is clear-eyed about her mortality now that she is well past the halfway point in her life. “I am healthy, but I know I’ve lived longer than I’m going to live.”
Her deepest friendships are those established long ago, but she is forming strong relationships at (retirement community) Norman-dy Farms, too. One, Pat, is in her late 80s. They do jigsaw puzzles and water aerobics together.
“I am coming to love Pat. She’s one of my trusted friends here. … Granted, she is at the end of her life, but she’s very alive in the moment.”
One of her hospice patients was 89 and able to communicate only with her eyes. The day before she died, Wroblewski told her: “I just want you to know it’s been a joy working with you, being with you. I believe you’re already in the hands of God.” Wroblewski felt lucky to have had time with her. “I learned the most from her. She was just a gracious receiver. She had no complaints. She enjoyed the moment.”
Wroblewski treasures hearing the stories of older residents. “They’re my mentors right now. They’re in places where I have yet to go, and they’re helping me choose how I want to go there.”
Therapists recommend volunteering as a way to do something valuable and meet like-minded people. Learn a new skill. Get involved in politics. Join a book club. Friendships will follow.
At Rydal Park, Jerry Jackson organised a show of his wife’s photos from their travels as a tribute. He does not expect to ever “get over” her death but said, “You have to go on.” He’s still making new friends and is well aware that they need to make the most of their time.
“They’re friends today and tomorrow, and that’s fine,” he said.
A new group is starting to form. “Maybe that’s the beginning of the next (breakfast) table,” Jackson said. “I hope so.” – Tribune News Service/The Philadelphia Inquirer/Stacey Burling